Wednesday, October 8, 2014

Code Brown and Panic

I have my 12-week appointment this afternoon, which I am both excited and nervous about. We decided that if everything went well--we heard a good, strong heartbeat, doctor says everything looks great--then we'd start telling people about the baby. Of course, I've had the natural amount of nervousness just hoping everything is progressing fine, since at this point I don't feel or look any different. I'm still nauseated all the time and my stomach is starting to pooch a little...but the pooch could easily be blamed on my overall laziness and less-than-great eating habits.

And then this morning, there was brown discharge when I wiped.

So far, I haven't had any sort of spotting except after my cervical exam. This came out of no where. It was definitely brown, not red, and you better believe I googled the crap out of it. It seems fairly common and like it shouldn't be a concern as long as it stays brown and there's no cramping. I felt some strong "pulling" (I guess) in my lower abdomen yesterday, which I'm led to believe is my uterus stretching, and I read that it can cause some bleeding when the ligaments stretch. It's definitely not as painful as menstrual cramps, but I wouldn't say it's exactly "painless" either. The next 5.75 hours could not possibly go any slower.

I'm not scheduled for an ultrasound today, as Dr. G. was only planning on listening to the heartbeat with a doppler. I suppose if the heartbeat is fine, he won't be worried, but I'm kind of hoping he'll give me an ultrasound anyway and maybe tell me where the bleeding is coming from--or if it's just cervical bleeding and no big deal. Or if the cyst he saw on my ovary in my 7 week ultrasound burst...or something else. Any kind of answer would be nice.

I haven't gone to the bathroom since this morning's incident. The irrational part of me wants to believe if I just don't see any more bleeding then I can pretend it's not happening. I wondered if I should call my doctor right away this morning, but I doubt I could get in any earlier than my already-scheduled appointment, so my only option would be the emergency room. And a little bit of brown spotting doesn't seem like an emergency room situation--especially since I'm seeing my doctor in a few hours anyway (5.5!).

How does anyone make it through this part of the pregnancy--where you can't see or feel your baby and have no idea what's going on inside of you!?! I'd just like a real growing bump that's more than last night's spaghetti. But that's still weeks away. Or some friendly kicks to let me know baby is still there. But that's still months away.

Am I ever going to be done WAITING for the next stage of my life!?

7 comments:

  1. Bleeding is ALWAYS so nerve wracking. We have been taught and told for many years that pregnancy and bleeding do not go together. I am sure you already know this, but I had huge clots and red blood from week six to seventeen and my girls are fine. It doesn't stop the worry though. I made it through my pregnancy because I got a doppler early on and listened to their heartbeats daily thoughout my entire pregnancy.

    You got this!

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  2. I completely understand what you are going through! I pray everything turns out okay and you feel at ease! I would get a doppler for later on in the pregnancy because it is so reassuring :) God bless!

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  3. From what I understand brown is ok. It sounds like you are ok girl :) I know the waiting is so very hard buy you got this and we'll be waiting for an update!!

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  4. Any type of blood that shows up is always sends our minds into a panic. However, I'm sure you know that brown blood is OLD blood. I worried throughout my entire pregnancy. It's impossible not too when it took us so long to get pregnant in the first place! Awesome that you have an appointment TODAY and won't have much longer to wait. I hope your doc does give you an u/s. Be sure to ask! Will you be doing your NT scan soon? There's only a very small window of time that they can do it, and it has to be done before 13.5 weeks. It's basically another u/s, but they are checking for abnormalities like down syndrome. I'm looking forward to reading your update and hearing how the appointment goes! Good luck!

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  5. Totally normal! I spotted regularly until 1/2 way through the 2nd tri. My peri told me not to worry unless it's 3 things: red, accompanied by cramping, and you see any clots....all 3 at same time. Hope your apt. went well. Try not to worry. I know it's hard, but soooo many women spot and even bleed like a real period while they are pregnant.

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  6. I hope things went well today! I've read tons of bloggers who've had all kinds of bleeding, and brown is supposed to be the least worrying kind. Update soon and let us know how it went!

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  7. Certainly alarming, but probably no need to worry...I managed to find things to worry about all through my pregnancy and wished I could turn that part of my brain off! Hope the appointment went well & was reassuring.

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