Tuesday, March 3, 2015

33 Week Ramblings

We have a crib! Of course, we have no bedding for it, but I feel like it's a step in the right direction. My aunt also let us have one of the rocking chairs from her house (she had nine - we were allowed to "shop" and choose whichever we wanted), so our nursery is actually starting to fill up.

I also spent last Friday priming and putting two coats of paint in our new bathroom downstairs. That was a HUGE mistake. I was sore for days. I still am. My back may never recover. I'm going to the chiropractor again tomorrow, and hopefully he can help me. I have been miserable, and I'm seriously wondering if I can make it four and a half more weeks at work. Sitting is the worst. Second only to standing/walking/lying down. I do not know how people work right up until delivery. I thought I would be one of those women. I am not. I am a worthless blob. Yes, I'm currently super fun to be around. I'm trying not to complain or be difficult, but chronic pain is no joke. I have sooo much more empathy for people who deal with pain like this all the time.

My shower is coming up on Sunday. I'm not really a shower girl. I don't like going to them, I don't like having them held in my honor. Bridal, baby, whatever - they're always uncomfortable. I'm grateful that I have friends who want to do this, and so many people who are willing to gift us stuff, but the whole concept is just strange to me. And I keep hearing how annoyed people are that we don't know the gender, because apparently it makes buying gifts difficult. Um...sorry to inconvenience you?

I'm starting to get antsy. At 33 weeks, it feels like I'm in the home stretch, but not yet in a "any day now" way. Like I know I probably still have at least 7 weeks, likely even more. So I'm feeling big and unwieldy, but I know it's still going to get worse. And the end is not yet in sight. I am trying to enjoy these last few weeks and cherish this time, but I am ready to be done. I haven't loved pregnancy, and I didn't really expect to. I was not someone who had dreamed her whole life of being pregnant. Of course I want kids - and I really, really want this one - but pregnancy is a means to an end for me. I would want this kid just as badly if someone else had carried it for me.

I'm grateful that I had the opportunity to be pregnant, but I'm going to be sooooo happy to not be pregnant. Believe me, I have all the motivation in the world to lose the weight every single time I have to put on my boots. Or drop something on the floor (which is ALL.THE.TIME. I am the so clumsy lately! I don't even know who I am anymore!). Or by the end of every day when I sit on the couch with my shirt pulled up and belly exposed because even the thinnest piece of fabric feels like it's restricting my stomach. I think I burned 500 calories this morning while putting on my pants. I don't even want to talk about Satan's minions that are socks.

It's also strange that it's the beginning of March and I'm not in the midst of tryouts. I miss it, but I'm also very happy with where I am right now. What a difference a year makes!

15 comments:

  1. I feel much the same way...I keep thinking, only 4 weeks to go! But then I realize 4 could easily turn into 6, which seems much more daunting. Boots and stairs are currently the bane of my existence.

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    1. 4 weeks! That's so soon! I am hoping you go into labor early enough before me that you can write a comprehensive birth story/dos and don'ts list that I can follow. Because you'll have nothing else to do post-partum.

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  2. I have very similiar feelings about baby showers (and am in the process of writing a post) so glad to know I'm not alone!

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    1. Oh, I'm excited to read this post. I have tricky feelings towards showers!

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    2. I know a lot of infertiles didn't like going to showers for other reasons, but I didn't like them before I was infertile. I don't like bridal showers even though I'm married. The whole concept is icky to me. I HATED registering. I'm looking forward to this post as well!

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    3. Yeah, even before infertility, those types of events have never been my thing. The games are stupid and I don't like having to either sit through gift opening, or be the one opening gifts while everyone watches. Awkward!

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  3. Yay for getting more nursery items! We are in the process of getting rid of crap that currently inhabits our "nursery". I mused to my husband if I am allowed to hijack my own baby shower so that it doesn't suck, because I too do not enjoy such events. I'm trying to figure out a way that I don't have to open gifts in front of everyone (like the next day, similar to a wedding...is that bad??). Hoping the home stretch isn't too rough on you!

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    1. YES! The opening gifts is the worst! Mine is technically a "drop-in" shower, so I'm *really* hoping to stay busy mingling and talking to everyone, and hopefully they come and go with no suggestions to open gifts. I've even tried to come up with some "crafts" or something for guests to do (even though that's not my style either) just to distract from the (hopefully!) lack of gift opening!

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    2. I hosted a baby shower where the mum to be indicated on the invite that gifts would be optional and would not be opened at the shower. We put the gifts in a bedroom and the event featured games, food, wine and cake. Yes some ppl bitched about the lack of gift opening. Too bad. Get over it

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  4. Yeah, I know some people like to ooh and aww over the gifts, but it's just awkward and quite frankly boring. But I also dislike the silly games at most showers, so I'm sure I'll have to cave on one of the two. Ya gotta give the people something! I'm hoping to have a really casual co-ed shower, potentially just drinks and appys at a bar/restaurant or a backyard BBQ.

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    1. I made a kick-ass celebrity baby picture game, if either of you want to use it!

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    2. Jane - yes please! I hate that all the games are like "guess how big mom's belly is" and "guess what disgusting poop-like thing we put in this diaper!" No thank you.

      Infertilegirl - I pushed really hard for a BBQ or something (co-ed definitely would have been my preference!) but I have my mother/aunts and a bunch of church ladies who really want the traditional shower thing.

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  5. Oh, yes I'd be interested in that game too, Jane. Celebrity/pop culture, right up my alley ha ha.

    Lilee, yes I'm sure my mother in law will be displeased with my thoughts on co-ed because she likes to host these little parties and invite all of her friends (people I barely know) to show off. I'm thinking I might see if my Aunt wants to host the co-ed option so I can kind of leave my MIL out of it, because my hubby's Aunt wants to host one as well. So I'm thinking she can do one after the baby is born, and I'll just let her do whatever. She'll be flying halfway across the country to host, so I suppose I'll have to give in on that one.

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  6. The other games I had for the shower I hoster were a basic guess the number of jelly beans in a baby bottle and a game where every guest received a plastic pacifier necklace at the start of the shower and they were instructed that they could not say the word "baby". If you catch someone saying the B-word, then you claim her necklace. The one who has the most necklaces wins. I liked that people could be playing games as they were mingling and chatting and there wasn't a formal game time, but it would still satisfy the need for those expecting games. Of course, the infertile in me also took delight in having a baby shower where you couldn't say the word "baby". I made the celebrity baby pic game, but googling celebrity baby pics, but if you want my template I can scan and email it to you

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  7. Okay, I am so mad that my comments don't ever post the FIRST time! Arg! Well anyway, I just want you to know I'm still reading and that I love your dry, sarcastic humor :)

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